lost

I am always trying to be myself

BUT

I am always failed in that

There are too much things in my head

I cant control it and I cant express it

WHY

I just want to do what i want to do

I just want to own the life that i dream for

I dropped my tears for lots of times,
screaming in my inner heart..

I don't understand, why am I been threatened like this?

So different from others?

Someone may say, u are threatened like this because u are the one they care the most.

But, how about me? How about my feeling?