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Ming~19 years old~currently study in IPGM campus Darulaman~♥ her family, bffs, friends and him♥~a outgoing girl~likes to shopping, listening to music and movies =)~seldom post blog~will be posting blog when free~nice to meet u all~♥

Friday, July 11, 2008

矛盾


每次决定了一件事
怎么还会觉得后悔呢
感觉自己好像很失败
因为人家常常说
"当决定了就不要后悔"
可是我...每次都这样...
为什么每当别人得知我要去师训时,
第一个问的问题都是:
"做么你要去当老师?"
"薪金不多nuh...怎么不留在matric呢?"
"matric不是比较好吗?"
"怎么不好好珍惜得到matric的机会呢?"
每当他们这样子说,我的自信心就少了一半
少到连我都觉得难道是我做错决定了吗?
我曾经想说如果可以回matric那该多好
但我很清楚很明白这只是我自己想的东西,是不可能的
我该怎么办呢?有谁可以告诉我,我该怎么办呢?
有人告诉过我,
既然决定了就应该预料到会这样,也应该要承担一切自己做的决定...
我知道....我明白...
但,我还是会被这些问题缠绕着
我承认,我承受不了这些打压
是我脆弱
又怎样
改不了啊!
最近压力很大
虽然决定了
还是在想着这个问题
又担心去了新学院会怎样
会不会没有朋友呢?会不会寂寞呢?
这都是我在担心的事

咳...
~好想回到从前噢~
~回到不用做决定的时候~
~多么无忧无虑~

2 comments:

★*:′貝殼●笨●丫头│.·│.· said...

不要以為只有你羡慕別人
你知道有時侯
也有人會羡慕你嗎
不好意思
闖了進來
加油
我的朋友
=)

Anonymous said...

min...
"if u r good, wherever u go, u r good"
it doesn't matter where u have been placed, it means what u have done all the way to your goal, Min.
One more u need to know, stress and tension come because u don't take it as a challenge.
The other way round, u should be courageous enough to cope with all the assignments and obstacles, then everything seems to be much easier, even to the level u never thought it could be so easy.
Remember, v all are by your side.
v r together to fight the war and experience the great time.
I know the circumstances r tough, but v r even tough and great!
=Alice,your teammate=